have you felt like i'm ignoring my blog? well i have. aside from the usual suspects of other online social outlets, i was spending most of my online time working with and for the etsy team i had joined last spring. sometimes i think something just must be in the air because this week has been the week i quit. i quit my cleaning job. i quit the team. i think i quit something else but i dont remember. (oh, yeah i quit my kickstarter thing.) it has taken me DAYS to go through my computer and get rid of everything that i was subscribing to and working on for the etsy team .
i think i miss having all that stuff that i did for the team (voluntarily with great joy most times) but i can see how i was giving a lot of time away that perhaps will now be used for whatever it is that is next. as with all things, rarely is it just one thing that makes you quit, rather a culmination of things form and then one day you realize it is just one too many and you are done. several of us felt that way and now we are free.
i suppose i could be seen as a quitter. or an opportunist. i dont see that as negative. you go where you are led to. you do what you are interested in and when things aren't working anymore you see if you or it can adapt or adjust and if not you move on. oddly enough, most times i move on. i've stopped trying to hold on to things. to people. to art. it's all like an exotic butterfly, this stuff, these experiences. let things flutter into your circle and enjoy it. but let things move on too. let yourself move on. thats how i see it. sometimes you can revisit things and sometimes you cannot. i keep searching and i keep finding. i 'm a little worn out right now to tell the truth. i feel like i've just jumped off of some crazy carnival ride and i just want to stop moving. stop doing. get my balance and move on.
thats life here in my little world