i get it now. i get the project thing and i get what i need to do. i need to NOT do this particular kickstarter project because it really isn't a 'project'. and i needed to feel excited and ready to do this thing and i didn't. the more i read the letter a kickstarter staffperson sent me when i brought up my dilemma the more i see i will need to do something else.
and i now have given myself permission to let go of this and look forward to something else that IS kickstarter worthy. and that wont be until after the holidays so i have time to work on this 'new thing' and take the proper time that i need to do it right.
so. its all about the vases and flowers this month and december i hope to start some prototypes of my new idea, present them to you guys and see if they are a hit. if so, i'm all over kickstarter after the new year! i'm glad i allowed myself to not do something that i was feeling trepidation about. it was uncomfortable and as always you really do wonder if you are being a puss. i think based on how i feel right now, i was being true to myself. thats a good thing.