for me this was more an exercise. a stretching of my mind in preparation for an art proposal sometime in the near future, say in houston or some other city. i let another deadline slip through my fingers because i realize i still do not possess the work or vision that i believe it takes to convince someone that what i am doing is that fascinating. my redwood assemblages are what i believe could make the cut some day. not yet. i only have sixty two pieces and i want to propose at least one hundred. ideally there would be twice that amount of work which i realize will take more than a summer to complete. the energy isn't there right now for those little pieces, i'm too busy trying to survive and making little things to keep me afloat. i do still look at my flickr slideshow and see the morphing of those pieces into something other than what they are. at about #25 there is a shift in the assemblages that continues clear up til the last piece. i will be curious to see what happens with this body of work.
as for the rejection, i think i'm relieved. knowing you aren't quite ready for something is an interesting place to exist. had i gotten accepted i would have shifted gears and push the pedal to the metal, and that couldv'e been exactly what i needed but it all felt rushed and on the fly ~ not really what i have in mind for my first accepted art proposal.