5/10/10

bat guano wafting in the wind and here i go again

i feel like a moron most of the time.  yesterday i finally decided with tod's help, to trudge over to the gallery space and find a way to take pictures of all my wood assemblages at once.  so while the clueless could glance at this and exclaim oh wow lookee at all those, what i see is bad photography, bad set up and double bad execution.  its GREAT to see these puppies all together but what you might not know is, they are on the floor.  i still haven't found a way i want to hang/present them as the majority of them look just as cool on the other side and i didn't want to screw hangers into them.  these are small, keep in mind the largest is about 8" long and the average size is just 3-4" W and L.

the first trip over we took both boxes and after realizing there wasn't an easy way to hang them without putting over 120 nails in the wall (2 nails could be spread apart and the piece rest on them i suppose) we dragged the three doors that jared put together as display walls outside in the light and i stood up on the outdoor 'bar' looking down at them.  didn't have a ladder and i really wanted a shot of all of them.  this is just the first batch, the 2nd batch we went back and did later because after unwrapping each one and writing down the number on a little piece of paper and laying it under the piece so we could re-wrap in the same numbered wrapping paper we were spent. i didn't take the time i could have to arrange them because once i had that little number under it it became even more of a chore to pick them up and catch that little piece of paper before the wind blew it away.

it got comical when i had a burst of energy and wanted to capture the same cloudy day lighting and begged tod to go with me again.  we walked over and started doing it again and tod just laid on the deck and had a meltdown. he got kind of pink/pale/ill looking and started shaking uncontrollably with a kind of anger/humor/laugh.  he was exhausted and it stunk of bat guano over there (the wafting shit from the bats at the prison a block away) and frankly we know this is crazy.  all of it.  the lugging of STUFF back and forth and over and over and making and doing and lugging and showing and lugging and storing.  it gets to us.  when tod's mom was here she had one little space to sit in and most of the time i had to move boxes and bubble wrap out of the way.  we live like hoarders even though we are not.  we just dont have space for our art stuff.  it goes against everything that seems logical, especially to tod.  there is a love/hate relationship with this art life.  i'm not complaining as much as just feeling as a loss most times for how much longer this can go on and what is necessary in order to live sanely.  what we NEED is an industrial building to work/store everything we collect.  what we need is a nice little place to just eat and sleep and not have to see the boxes and the tools and everything else.


anyway.... here is #2.  these are actually the first 30 odd pieces i made, the vertical photo is the latter half.  it was darker by then and without even thinking about how mismatched it would look this time i had the brilliant idea of doing it horizontally so when i stood on the bar thing i could just point down and shoot without later rotating the photo.  what i realize now is that i'm an idiot because not only are these blurry when viewed as 1:1 viewing, it just isn't right to have one vertical and one horizontal. not to mention the color is OFF, these have so much more character in real life i can't submit as is.  i took these mostly for an upcoming art proposal i fantasize about submitting to.  ugh.  i will have to do this again.  it'd be easier if they were all numbered in some cool way and not individually wrapped in layers of tissue paper.  i dread doing this again but i will.  its what i do.

15 comments:

Daphne Enns said...

Retrospect is a bitch.

If you could hang (plus make) shadow box frames, all the same size, meaning they would all have to be able to fit your largest piece, or build a curio cabinet of shelves so that you don't have to hang millions of frames then you would keep that beautiful grid pattern and each piece could sit in it. If you did that obviously it would be best to do the frame in a colour that doesn't compete such as white, unless plexiglass suddenly feel from the sky...as for the diagonal pieces, you could lean each against one side of its little cube. Food for thought for another time perhaps. Maybe a metal frame that way you could use a recycled material. Oh! or shelving constructed of layers of cardboard, glued together as a curio! Just thinkin' out loud.

paula said...

thanks for the ideas daphne. i think i would prefer invisible means of hanging, i don't want anything seen or boxing in. and the diagonal pieces aren't diagonal, just me being dyslexic. i'm thinking plexiglass is good but even that would detract. i dont want to hang them truth be told. i like being able to pick them up and hold them.

Michelle said...

I dont have so much Time Today,
so I have to say, I could not read all the Text,
but what impressed me is,
to see your fantastic Work all together like that
on a Photo,
looks even more expressive,
really really love it!!!!!

paula said...

thanks michele, glad you don't see the flaws in my photography!!!

andrea said...

You are too hard on yourself. These do look so good as a grouping. Together they show a real creative direction/cohesiveness that's important. I like Daphne's idea of a curio cabinet. I think shallow, open shelves, really basic ones, would be a great way to display them. That way you could pick them up and look at all sides, too.

Cynthia said...

Oh wowee, lookee at all those!!! Call me cluleless...I guess you already did. I'm with Andrea, you're too hard on yourself! Yeah, the second picture is not as sharp as it could be but still how wonderful to see these all together! I'm diggin' it!

Who you callin' housewife? said...

These things are so incredible grouped together.

Could they be hung (from something) with teeny eye screws and fishing wire?

paula said...

i'm listening...i guess i can't picture what a curio cabinet is. and a tiny screw in the back (which to some might look like the front) i think would ruin them. i could say 'this is the front and this is the back' but honestly both sides are equally important. hanging/dangling from fishing wire might work but then i will look like a large nursery or something??? i dunno. i dont like thinking about it. i want someone to just do it for me if i ever get a show.

Nellie's Needles said...

I, too, like seeing them all together. They're wonderful little art pieces ... and each should be signed. A number could be included along with your signature. These could be on the side rather than on the "front" or "back".

paula said...

ur right nellie but i swear...i can't bring myself to tarnish them with a signature either. glad you all like these, its encouraging. i'm gearing up to work on more.

ArtPropelled said...

I hear you about the back and forth, packing, unpacking, exhaustion,bad lighting, lack of space thing...BUT.... Paula these pieces look absolutely stunning! When my heart starts racing and I get goose bumps I know I've found something fantastic. Please know you are on the right track with your work. I'm in love with these pieces.... this whole look. And to think you did this in a far from ideal situation while trying to adjust to big life changes, never mind the itchie bites and sleepless nights. Pat yourself on the back girl....you deserve it! Something big is going to happen with these. Wait and see.

There is a way around hanging these. Look at the gallery websites. There are often installations of tiny objects. At a gallery here they have a xmas show of tiny pieces on the wall (from found objects, ceramics, assemblages to paintings). There is usually a little hole in the back of each object for hanging.

donauluft said...

I did not read the whole text, but I love to see this grouped on the floor! It is a really sculptural impression!
.......I can imagine a large, high gallery room, all the walls empty,...and your objects on a concrete floor..!

paula said...

robyn you are something else...thank you. thank you. and still the same problem...most of these are not front and back so if i drill a hole in one side i feel it is designated the backside and 'ruined' by the hole no matter how small. i guess when the time is right i will have to decide, but until then they will percolate.
donauluft..i feel the same. i like the thought of them on the floor and people could walk and look down and go down and pick up. OH HOW GRAND for such little things and for such a nobody but it seems the only way right now

collage whirl said...

You are a sculptor Paula, and you want these to stay viewable from all directions. Maybe a 3D installation? The floor idea sounds good too. I love these, to me they evoke old longboards (surfboards) made from redwood.

And I agree with ArtPropelled. I could see these in a NYC gallery, easy. So inspiring... sigh.

paula said...

deborah, i appreciate your thoughts, seeing the words 'you are a sculptor paula' does something to me!!!