11/22/09

back to now what

as a full time artist working for no one but myself, i find it challenging to know what to do next. after the rush of a project is over and the high dissolves into unseen particles, i must then refocus and find the next thing.

it was a relief when we got here last month to have dan suggest i make some bone furniture to be exhibited at the Doss Heritage & Culture Center in weatherford, texas. i felt pressure and stress, but was excited and given purpose. a few posts down for those of you who haven't seen, i indeed made two tables which will exhibit later this week.

i was flying last week let me tell you! and now i'm stumbling around looking for familiarity or clues to whats next. working on the new blog also kept me busy, but as you artists know, if ya aint making art, things dont feel right inside. i feel little to no pull to make my own art. meaning, back to my clocks or puzzle or mixed media works. those works are packed up as are most of the materials that i use to make them. all that rusty scrappy stuff just takes up too much space to lay out and work on and it still feels like i need to be working with what is available here and now. it's hard to know if in the future, some far off time when i can only imagine how i might actually have the space and time to dig out all my materials, if i will indeed revisit those bodies of work. i hear some artists are like that, they make a few here and there and move on. if i keep moving on i get the feeling my art will follow suit. just means next time we move i dont lug all the collected materials with me!

so today tod and i will go to the bone house, its sunday so there might not be anyone around. i'm going to savant myself into an art mode i hope. the phoenix commotion now has a design store with the idea in mind that artists can make art based on the theme of whatever project is in the works. that means, bones and wood and mirror to match the bone house theme. the design store is a great idea as the sales will benefit the artist and the phoenix commotion, fueling both at once. the challenging part is creating functional art that isn't too expensive or too kitschy. i've been a bit stumped honestly as i can't keep making bone furniture unless they get more bones (supply is limited right now) and we find out that there is demand. i don't want to fall into a crafty mode and make something stupid but i can't be making $1200 pieces either. good challenge isn't it!

so. up and down and on and off. back to that 'what am i doing' mantra and looking for an answer. at least it isn't boring....

7 comments:

ArtPropelled said...

A quote by M.Scott Peck for you.
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers."

paula said...

great quote for me today, thank you!

Kim Hambric said...

Hope I'm not going to suggest something that is going to ruin your day.

What about keeping a journal of some kind? It doesn't necessarily have to be a book. I know that you draw (or did). Why not do some drawings for a while? Perhaps you could use them in the future for collage or assemblage.

Love the quote that Art Propelled shared.

When you have your retrospective one day, you'll want to give your viewers a complete account of your artistic life.

Dawn of LaTouchables said...

Please tell me about the savanting yourself into an art mode...is that like apple pie a la mode? Let me know--sounds delicious!

paula said...

that doesn't ruin my day kim, but i dont journal anymore. it feels unhealthy to me and i like to just live in the now now. i've journal ed to death and am done! if its important i will remember it ;)

dawn, savanting myself into art mode means i perform a magic act. somehow i twirl inside and have enough things spinning around me that i've gathered to come up with the next thing. sometimes i get 'in' and sometimes i dont.

Dawn of LaTouchables said...

That sounds like the whirling dervishes--they spin around in a trance, and ...puff, it's there! Going to go do some dervishing of my own...

jeanamarie said...

i can relate a little bit - after a year of having assigned briefs to respond to i am a little lost as to where to go next. i just keep making stuff, picking up unfinished things and figure sooner or later something will take on a bit more meaning to me ... (i hope!)