12/13/08

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I don't know who I am anymore.
You know there is something wrong when you are watching Britney Spears (a mini doc. called 'for the record') and start to think that she is smarter than you are.

12 comments:

Ellen said...

Paula, Paula, Paula, turn off that poison, Britney Spears? pfffft! It's December, it's artist angst, it's cyclical, accept the black mood, ride it out, it shall pass. Remember the highs you get when you do something you love, get to show it or sell a piece, it won't happen with every piece, but it will happen more often, give it time. The lows are part of it. I know you've heard this stuff all before and it's probably annoying to hear again, but I can't resist because there's wisdom in those cliches.

self taught artist said...

i just need to find a way to take care of myself so i dont starve.

Helena said...

Oh dear! Surely not! Make a cup of tea and have a lie down. NOW!

Karen said...

You are. You are a wonderful talent. Undiscovered as yet. You rock. The black mood is a moment in your life. a small moment in the big universe of your life. It is ok to pause and feel it. then let it go. force a smile. go on...right now....see. it isnt so hard. yeah I know I know. sometimes life is so damn frustrating and hard. Its winter. its cold. but just think...all the bugs are gone away for the season. Rejoice! It will all get better. for all of us. and when it does...look out world!!

Lisa said...

Wow - does she make pencil holders also :):)

Cheer up - your post gave me a much much needed smile today after a trip to retrieve all the belongs I stored at Jim's house.

San said...

I'm not curious enough to watch the documentary myself, but I do wonder what it was that made you think that. Don't tell me. Your thought was, 'Why am I watching a documentary about Britney Spears? I must be dumber than her.'

:-D

Nellie's Needles said...

Here's a quote from a recent Robert Genn newsletter":

"Some observers have noted that artists may actually need stress and anxiety to get the best from themselves. Subscriber Bill Cannon wrote, "Mozart, Vivaldi and Van Gogh stretched their genius on struggle, stress and survival." When we sit down to work with concerns like this, perhaps it is the fresh hope that we know the creative act will give us and the fear that this fresh effort may not work out. "Minds that are ill at ease are agitated by both hope and fear," said the banished Greek poet Ovid more than two millennia ago."

self taught artist said...

karen...thanks for saying that. i'm thinking i could rot in this basement and no one would know.

san, i will tell you why i said that since you asked.... brittney has been through hell. and she said so many things that were uplifting and shattered my judgments about what a bimbo she is. and she perseveres. she has found a way to funnel all the shit into something good. i never liked her music, don't care for her but after listening to her interview, which was very well done if i do say so myself...i have a respect for her that i dont have for myself in how i handle my life.

and nellie...i can't make art when i am stressed. i dont like anxiety. it paralyzes me and i start to disintegrate. i become useless...save for throwing things away and getting ready to live under the bridge.

BlueJude said...

Enjoyed catching up. Love the horse peice! And PLEASE stay away from Britney! Miss ya STA! Bluejude hugs!

Kim Hambric said...

I think Britney has some smart handlers. I think she just got drunk and stumbled over the right people. I'm sure she has some pretty black moments herself.

Gee, I wonder what would happen if your work was exposed to as many people as Britney's "music" is?

Perhaps the best thing to do is to stumble over as many people as possible. Perhaps Britney's great success is a result of making a fool of herself as often as possible, stumbling, falling, dressing horribly, performing horrid songs, and acting like a bimbo. Should we artists take lessons from her?

deb said...

I doubt Brit ever accidentally stumbled over anyone, I have found dumb girls tend to be pretty smart at manipulating people!and Paula, get a grip woman!! and if not come and visit for a couple of days and break away from your monotony!!

Steve Kane said...

I always think I'm stupid. I start to panic if I haven't been reading or watched any quality films for a while. I think that if I stop feeding my brain with knowledge or art I will gradually become more and more stupid until I am no better than a lobotomised amoeba or a reality TV contestant.

Thinking Britney Spears is smarter than you... that is worrying. But shut up! You are clearly much smarter than the likes of Britney Spears.