Yesterday I had a blog friend tell me she gets 50,000 blog hits a month. Last month I had another blogger tell me she gets a butt load of visitors as well. I'm thinking I must be missing the mark, last time I checked I had 19 visitors yesterday. My biggest day was 36.
My little blog has been useful for me both on an emotional level and an artistic one. It served well in the beginning, seemed my unstable state of mind and life was more interesting than my current less stressed one is now. Back then people visited often and I sold some art. Sometimes I can't help but to want to ask 'is it me? am i boring now?' The art is still good, if not better, but I'm not in throws of angst and whatever else.
I know I get less visitors now because I removed myself from blog catalogue. After a blogger from there was stealing my and everyone else's blogs to use for an ad blog, after realizing that I got more invites to be a friend than I ever have in my real life...after realizing I didn't want friends that never said hi let alone visit my blog, I removed myself from there.
I realize I am not a hype person. I'm not gonna get out there on the streets and sell my soul/ strut my self and throw my art at people. I know people who have that personality and they do it quite well. I'm also not going to join every online thing and be inundated with friends and faces of people who just want numbers and not anything else. I realize my getting known, if at all, is going to be a slower process and I'm okay with that for right now.
There too is a part of me that doesn't feel like there is as much to say. Not many adventures have been happening. I've been working grunt jobs here and there to keep my head above water. Not been on any road adventures looking for scrap what with car issues and gas prices. The home owners delayed their summer visit (and they just got here last night) this year so it was more quiet and less chaotic feeling. Strangely, considering I've made less, shown less and sold less this year, all in all this has been my best summer since leaving Arizona and going towards this artistic life.
I still think about art most of the day, EVERY DAY. I 'm always looking for stuff. Getting out of my car if I'm out and about walking the roadside with a baggie picking up stuff. Looking online, being in my studio futzing. It is my life 24/7 whether I'm physically making something or not. It's mostly what Tod and I talk about. I feel saturated in a good way and I have to believe that if I continue on I will be awake, aware, and ready when and if some opportunity comes along. I keep thinking I'm building my soup stock. I don't have the big piece of meat in there but the main ingredients, the seasonings...all have been boiled, simmering and getting rich. (collecting materials, making art, learning skills, etc)
I suppose if my blog dips down to less than 10 readers a day for more than a month I might feel apt to pull the plug, but honestly it feels good to just share even if it is just one person who is interested or cares. I know some blogs have tons of subscribers and rarely get comments (i don't know how they stand that, maybe i just crave real interaction with people, I'm not here to entertain anyone) I can't complain, I've had great interactions with people and I've gotten turned onto their blogs/lives and that is like double frosting on the cake.