Then I found out that last saturday's BINGE driving of 17 hrs turned into a loss. Somehow or another I shorted the pay envelop $100. So in my mind I made nothing for all that work. I made nothing when I thought I made something based on how little it was.
A few days ago I got an inquiry about three of my favorite clocks and today a confirmation that they will buy them. I always find it surprising when a complete stranger emails about art and says the bare minimum. It is always a little disconcerting but so far has always panned out with no repercussions. It is a ray of sunshine in my dark week!
I also got an email from a blog reader who suggested a site for me to look at and to think about making jewelry or smaller works with scrap. More easily shipped overseas and perhaps more sellable to general public. I have thought about that but what has kept me from pursuing that further is the learning curve and expense of new supplies. I know if money were no object I would have gone down that road by now, hopefully I will have the time/$$ to explore that in the future. Right now I don't have the creative mind to make a 1" piece of art. I am wiped out mentally and physically. It hit me yesterday like a ton of bricks. I'm not twenty and staying out all night driving last weekend is still wreaking havoc with my bio rhythms.
It is interesting from an objective point of view where I am at...there must be something to gain from all of this taxi business since it obviously isn't bucketloads of bucks. I have completely cut the cord with making art so as to stop feeling the onus of being productive and creative. I can only assume this break is useful in some unknown way. I wonder of other artists who had to step back and withdraw from being in the gallery just when they felt they were finally getting established and moving towards something. Did they feel they too would be forgotten...would the wall real estate in the gallery get gobbled up by other artists? Would their work fade and creativity find someone else to visit? Is an absense okay for 6 months? For a year? When do I say enough and go back to art as my primary way of making income? Will it really ever be the primary way I make it? Lets hope so!