|chris removing the horrid paint and revealing beautiful wood floors|
|dan, a human marvel......|
|my front door entrance mosaic|
|had to use that tool to remove lots of carpet glue remnants before i can install tile|
|the center is gonna be bullet shells, the texas star thanks to dan mapping it out cuz it required knowing exact degrees and measuring. if you know me you know i couldnt do this if my life depended on it. dan admitted it isnt exactly easy :)|
|linda did amazing window mosaics|
|neko made a shelf with galvanized steel 'decor'|
i kinda made a decision today after talking with dan, that i want to just go for it if i can. do the dan thing. the phoenix commotion thing that tod and i originally came out here for....build my own damn house. it would have to be small. the studio would be the most important thing. i dont feel the big YES but i dont feel the big NO. mostly i feel tired and incapable. but it feels like something i'm supposed to do. or try to do. to assume to do and be open if the universe presents me with an otherwise.
it could start this summer. i need financial help. and i need lottsa other help. all i know is right now this is the only thing that seems to be in my lap. that makes any kinda sense. i'm bone tired now and i know if i do this i will be beat. who knows. act as if. assume. and be ready to change course.
i'll share more when and if i have anything to share. mostly i need a place to work on art. i dont need or want some artsy fartsy house. i'll go for a cool outdoor design, functional dwelling....low mortgage. i am always seeking and observing. if something else crops up i'm open. hell i'm open to just about anything, anywhere. long as i feel supported and useful. a pull....energy.
energy. which seems to be something i lack. and yet i go on. sometimes at work i want to just leave. barely having the energy emotionally to put my tools up. its getting warm. humid. there is no ac. while working. i gots my hot flashes and temperament. its just life. its all i know. all i think there is. i need to keep being open. keep doing. long as i'm here. i can't quit.